Father has
lost it again. Doesn't he always? His bits of night sky chalk pieces of hair stayed tightened like a metal helmet around his head as he peered through the
window. ”They should be coming anytime now.” He banged his fist at the wooden
door; banged it so hard the bones could be heard cracking like glass.
“Papa calm
down. They’ll make it.” I said. He turned to me, his dark chocolate eyes filled
with soulless hope contaminating my body whole.
“I know they will.” His words came out
like candy cracking his teeth. His wrinkled forehead looked like a folded
cloth.
“Papa, we are safe; don’t worry.” I said. My hand grabbed my
yellow smooth hijab that was tightly around my head.
“We are overdue-the Janjaweed-they will be coming.” Papa
said, his pupils growing. He paced back and forth around the petite wooden house;
his earring dangling, sounding like plops of rain.“
We can’t
afford to think like that papa.” I said a lie that spiraled from my mouth. I
too was having heavy thoughts of viscous men on their galloping horses carrying
big guns, slaughtering every living thing that stepped foot in this place. I
had tearful memories of how they killed my mom right in front of my eyes; eyes
too innocent to be revealed to this monstrosity. I was locked in a dark
cupboard. I looked through a gaping hole to see a towering black man, the same
color skin of my mom and I, clawing at her pushing her as if she was a mouse.
Strawberry colored blood was pouring everywhere; her soft creamy skin torn like
a thin piece of paper. He then proceeded to rip off her clothing and blue
Hijab. He violated her and if that wasn’t enough he took his big brown gun and
pulled the trigger. Then he dumped her into a stone well as if she was garbage.
I closed my eyes; they stung. My eyes opened to see a transition from my sheer
glass memory to my worried father. There was a knock on the door. My father
turned the knob to see a white as paper man, holding a large gun. I gulped and
then backed away.“Hello.” He opened his hand; his palm revealed connecting
lines; lines of trust and wrapped candies. I slowly walked towards him, my foot
cold and bare. Then grabbed a candy and shoved it in my mouth. The candy was sweet and devoured my
heart. I smile at him and said, “Marhaba.” He smiled back, showing his blinding
white teeth.
“Marhaba, you guy’s no need to worry you are now safe.”
“What are you going to do with us?” My father asked.
“I’m here to help. I came from America. Want another
candy?” The man with the gun responded. I grabbed another one and this immediately melted in my
mouth; melted all the pain of today. This one day I knew I was safe. I knew I
had one other day to live.
