Build This City

She thrives to build this city of conquered variations of continuity
Trying to anchor tranquility through out sheep like motions
She doesn't try to find herself but she did in those lost hopeless nights
Giving all her love to all but not forgetting herself
Sometimes she wants to let go
Trying to see the sanity that she needs to go on
She makes mountains of mistakes 
Only to find mountains of accomplishments and hope
Often she wanders of those who leave her
And wishes them the best
She holds onto those that care for her
And puts every inch of breath to be there for them
Sometimes she often wishes if there was another way
But the earth keeps spinning
And time keeps going

Wanting To But Can't

Wanting to give more to this world
But not knowing what to give
Wanting to help, knowing your impact only weighs so much
Wanting to give, even though you are not perfect
That you are a complete utter flaw
Uttering whispers into the hopeless night
You want to help love ones, ones in need
But theres so much you can do

Pray

She prayed not because she believed in god
But she believed in hope
Believing in something more powerful than oneself
To preserve sanity
Even though nothing seemed sane anymore
She would pray

Back When I Didn't Know

Unsettling attempt to see the good in those that don't see any at all

I used to be that way too

Back when I didn't know

Giving, trying to lead a life of perfection

But failing

There is no perfection

I see the good in most people

Back when I didn't know

I would give my whole world to certain people

Back when I didn't know

I gave up my everything

Just to see someone who I loved smile

Losing hold of myself

I forgot to take care of myself

But sometimes I still do forget

Back when I didn't know I wasn't alone

That I shouldn't give up when times are hard

I should keep going 

And not only see the good in other people

But also in myself

In life 

Even when no one understands

You understand yourself

Back when I didn't know

Try For Yourself

Unravel theories thought through complex souls
Doubt that people will understand what they refuse to believe
Stays in adequate settings ever defying delusions
Growing forever tall and learning not to care
But keep trying for yourself
People make mistakes
Undefined

Defined

Knowing weighs collective notions of ambiguity
Varying from size these half full picture collapse
Creating a new exquisite depiction of what is defined perfect
Begging only the truth is conceived through her reality

She

She dreads empty lies

Painted with thick rushes of stapling warm colors; haunting

Gushing of emulating theories consume her fathomable soul

She rush’s for perplex perfection growing within the mind

She betters herself

Leaving things that don’t call back to her